Out of odd times, which were going in my life, I have started to feel light again from inside. Even though situations are not highly favorable but the inner peace is becoming firm. I am not taking things heavily. Every good or bad phase is just a passing phase. So, I am not giving much attention to the bad things or the good things. I am not highly concerned if people are leaving me or getting attached to me. People leave for good reasons, people get attached for good reasons. In actual, it is not always the reason which satisfies me. It is the state of my-self, the inner wisdom which guides me about when to let go and when to hold back. Sometimes, I love and sometimes I detach, now I am trying not to hate. Earlier, I used to believe in the infinite love capacity inside me. This belief is still there and lots of love is still there but now I have become judgmental because I found out that people were taking my humility for weakness. People were thinking that I am just a low-down guy whom they can manipulate and guide according to them and I used to be guided by them because I loved them. But, soon I learned that this is not a healthy personality so, I changed myself and learned that before loving others it is important to love yourself first and that is what I do now, first. I am trying to know the real ME and focusing on who I am. I am making rules of what I will take and what I won’t. May be, I am living my teenage again but sometimes, in life you have to relearn. Only on getting the real self-confidence back (which is coming in increments) I can reassure of loving anyone now. Though, I am not broken up from inside but some pain is there which I believe will take some time to go away completely. Even though friends, girl-friend/wife and family may help but at the end it is my-own-self which I am supposed to be. This is the base, which needs to be nurtured the most. I had actually forgotten this. In my life, where I have seen lots of love in my family life and through friends circle; going through the pain of relationships has taught me not to take things seriously. It’s like a water under the bridge which will pass sooner or later. All you have to do is watch it going. All those good times and bad times will pass through under a bridge called life. Even though times are not good, but there is an optimism. A belief in self, a confidence in self-worth which is not dependent on anyone, an understanding of law of water under the bridge. It may take some time, but I know there is a sun shinning across the clouds and will shine through completely once the clouds disappear. Then the flowers will blossom, birds will start chirping and atmosphere will be full of life once again. I believe in that. The tough phase will be over, leaving me stronger, more fluid, more wise and more patient. I will be the someone who believes, who understands, who nurtures, who loves, who meditates, who is more absorbent towards life’s lessons and who is more patient and more strong to face the life again. Then once in a while, when this tough phase in life will repeat itself again, I will be standing on the life’s bridge smiling at the situation and saying – it is a water under the bridge, it will soon pass off again. So, keep smiling