I looked at money , it made me happy,
I looked at family, it made me happy,
So, what makes me more happy out of these two?
I looked again…
I get disturbed when someone in my family is disturbed,
whereas, I don’t get disturbed when I loose money,
I am not able to work properly when my mom is disturbed,
yet so many times,
I work late for money….
Why? Because I love money,
Does money give me all the satisfaction?
No!…
As I continue to expand my role…
in this world…
I need people around me to be happy,
else I will also be tensed…
if I can have enough money to pay bills and save for future ,
I am happy,
I don’t need money at the cost of my people (my family or colleagues),
But does keeping family and friends happy… and earning enough keeps me happy…
No!
I have to keep my environment happy,
that calls for empathy,
and experiencing how everyone is connected… from within
Will having enough money, satisfactory relationships, taking care of environment … makes me happy,
No!
I have to be happy from within,
How?
True knowledge yield to true happiness…
What is the true knowledge?
This is what I am figuring out,
In the mean time…
I choose to live with Positive attiude,
I choose to take Life as it comes,
I choose to experience Impermanency of everything,
… and my heart dives back into peace,
this peace might be an illusion of momentarily satisfaction,
I don’t know!
yet I choose to remain at peace,
as long as I can remain.

… buddha explained how everything works in a beautiful way… “everything is impermanent” …. so even if you become attached to money, people, work or attitude…. the moment which brought you happiness fades away in the next moment …. so.. why attach yourself? Be Free by understanding impermanency.. he doesn’t talk about god.. all he says that experience impermanency in your body… and that is all there to experience… once you stopped attaching yourself to anything…. reality would open its petals like a lotus… this non-attachment would come naturally when you witness impermanency on a daily basis… this watching of impermanency is called “Vipassana”… and this is what I learnt during my 10 days meditation course at Igatpuri…. to observe impermanency permanently…

I am seeing a gradual change in my life,
I have become more positive,
I don’t crib now,
I accept and move on,
I am able to control myself and let go off things more easily..

If someone asks me.. why Vipassana… here is what I reply

just saying vaheguru or Om does not qualify these words to be the god’s word…. we actually have to believe that they are the words of god… we have to Imagine that these words are said by god…. in order for these words to work… we have to imagine therefore if we know god through imagination…. it is not a real experience… I want to experience god as it is… without any additions or subtractions…

So, where is god?

God is everywhere.
But how do I experience everywhere?
..but the first question is… what do I experience at this present moment?
I experience- emotions, thoughts, impulses..etc..
… there is so much to experience in every moment…
Correct!
But, how do I experience thoughts, emotions, impulses..etc
??????
Buddha’s super-discovery comes handy here
we experience every emotion, every thought, every impulse through the sensations it produces on body… every thought, every emotion creates sensation in the body and we react to this sensation not external world
this is the world of experience – “sensations in the body”
why believe anyone.. experience it yourself,
first, develop concentration to notice sensations in body
then observe sensations in each part of the body
forget thoughts, forget impluses, forget emotions..
just observe sensations,
experiencing god through sensations,
discovering god through sensations,
something which is very practical…
the technique is Vipassana and goal is complete experience of body sensations to the point where each sensation is experienced effortlessly…. and finally leading to a state beyond sensations,
.. called “Nirvikar Samadhi”…
this is a state … stop!
no more intellectual explanations till the time all the sensations in body are observed…
first is experiencing god..then only it makes sense to talk about god and samadhi.